Temporary Archive: Suzanne Brockmann's Message Board

[ Back to Archive Index ]

Absolutely, I remember every detail-

Posted by Chris (FL) on 9/3/2005, 15:33:35, in reply to "yeah not fond of the starting position"
becasue what I talked about was the confrontation-but the emotional fallout from this impacted my life for 8 months - I felt so completely violated even though interestingly enough, he barely had his hands on me-(I'm fairly certain now I had PTSS from this and didn't know it)

It was the cutest apt, in the cutest town and it was secure, front and back doors of the building were kept locked, it was on the corner of a side street and main street (high visiblity) etc.

But after that day, I could no longer be in my apartment alone, even during the day, not even for a little while. I could not sleep alone, or I wouldn't close my eyes at all.

And I would wake up at night, (every night for the first 6 weeks) and swear that I heard the front door open.

Then I was in the laundry room one day, like 2 weeks later and I turned around and my landlord was standing there and I screamed on reflex, so loudly he turned the color of snow -

This ordeal tipped my entire existence on to its axis. So I packed up and moved in with one of my girlfriend's and her family for 2 weeks while I looked for an apt - I needed to find a place to feel safe again. It was the only way for me to regain control of my life.

Even then, it took another 6 months and if snow fell off of a tree behind me onto the driveway - I would spin around just to make certain, it was only the snow.

So... I know exactly why I remember all the details so clearly.


Responses:


Temporarily archived without permission from Suzanne Brockmann's Message Board.
Contact Donna if questions or concerns.