I totally agree with the self introspection and not quitting. My folks always drilled that into our heads.
I think it's so sad when people suffer because they took the easy way out just because they could. I don't understand it. Where's the challenge? Where's the feeling of success and triumph? How bad would that suck to not feel that?
I was in a car accident when I was 16 and broke some ribs that punctured one of my lungs. They had to put a chest tube in to drain the blood in my lung, but because I'd hit my head, they couldn't give me any anesthesia. (I did get a local for the incision, though.) :)
The whole time they were putting that tube in it hurt like hell!!!! I could feel them wiggling the tube around, trying to get it in my lung.
Then it was in too far. That hurt like hell, too!!! I told them it was in too far, but they had to take an x-ray to see the placement. Then I had to wait for the x-ray to get to the radiologist.
Then they came back and told me, "It's in too far. We have to take it out and reinsert it."
I was like, "Can't you just pull it out a little?"
No go. So I had to go through it all again. It sucked big time. But I sure feel good about myself today that I went through that and I was okay. I may have had tears coming out of my eyes, but I didn't scream.
Damn! That makes me feel good. There's nothing like the feeling of overcoming a difficult obstacle!
Sorry for the rambling...Glad you're here... Thanks for your thoughts.
Tracy